Packing

The stupidly long holiday draws to a close. There is now nothing left for me here. Unfortunately, I've not done any packing yet, so today is going to be spent getting myself in order. I didn't properly unpack last time, so it shouldn't take too long, but it's still a difficult process.

Yes, I've got used to living back at home. I think I observed some time ago that this is the longest time I've spent back at home since I left for University. All other breaks have been much shorter, and last summer I went to the USA, of course. So this has almost been like I never left.

I don't know yet whether I'm going to go through the same sad process of leaving all over again. I doubt it because this time I'm moving and knowing where I'm going, what I'm doing and who I'm living with. When I moved off to University, I really didn't have a clue at all what I was letting myself in for. This time I have more certainty, but it doesn't mean I'm not going to miss my family here, which is something I've gotten quite used to again.

But I think some trauma is going to set in. Right now there are still an enormous amount of things that haven't been sorted out for the move tomorrow which are filling me with needless worry. I know in a few days time all will feel normal again, because I remember actually how easily I made the transition last time. It surprised me that all of a sudden I didn't care that I only spoke to my family once a week on the phone. I was too busy with my own life.

It's a sad but necessary process. There will be some initial feelings of divorce. Sudden change is sometimes a little difficult to comprehend.

But it really is time for me to get back to my adventure in life. I don't know exactly where it's going to take me over the next 10 months... but it's sure to be fun.

Next time I post will be some days away, BT reconnection dependent...